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Moved.

2009-12-11T01:32:00.000-08:00

Moved for forever to theyaelheroblog.blogspot.com

2 more years, not that long.

2009-11-09T00:58:00.000-08:00

All I want is to keep us together, then this is all I get, and I don't deserve it.

They are cowards. They tell me so many things over the phone and on Yahoo Messenger, and then take it all back say that they don't care, that it's fine with them, on the time of confrontation just so Thea won't get hurt.

So who is the naive girl who has the issues now? It's me. Damned me. It's just me, who has the problem. It's just me, who's jealous. It's just me, who's just.... WHAT THE HELL, THE PROBLEM'S JUST WITH ME!

That's why Friends are not true. For your knowledge, this has happened to me three times already, all at the same year. There can't be no one to be with you when you need it but yourself. They will abandon you when things get ugly. When you're now in trouble. Friends are people whom you choose to be with for the mean time to help you get through it. Other than that, they are nothing.

Why do I keep trying, anyway? They didn't ask me to fix it, and I'm not a hero, so why should I? I'm just another kid who suddenly was carrying the weight of Thea's shit. Besides, this is not meant to last, so I better ignore the fact that it's getting rotten every minute and get on with my life. 2 years more to go and I'm done with this. 2 more years, not that long.

It's not 'who looks best'; it's 'who is the best'.

2009-10-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

I'll tell you a secret.

I have a disease. It's like Anorexia. Only that I am not conscious about my weight, or my physical appearance. This disease is not about 'who looks best'; it's about 'who is the best'. It's EN-caused, but it's not exactly 'insecurity'.

Here's how it works: first, it gets inside you as something not so unusual.

Like when someone like EN gets you drop your jaw in an English class introduction.

Day by day, it inhabits your mind and your soul, and yet, you won't notice it. You will think you are on the right track if you let this disease control you.

Like when you try your best to improve and to be EN-like. When you set EN as your idea of human perfection.

It dominates you slowly, imperceptibly. It eats you bit by bit, painlessly.

And then one day, it has overwhelmed a large part of you. And that is when it attacks. It 'awakens' and strikes you. It happens infrequently, usually unexpected, but it will afflict you. The result is your self esteem and confidence drastically dropping down to zero. It lasts how long depending on how fast you get over the attack.

I pity myself because of this. I do not want to see myself this pathetic, but, I would have never cared if I did not learn how to set myself this high. It is not my wish to blend into the crowd, but, I am not remarkably good enough to be recognized right away.

Just like EN is.

SaveMotherEarth.110mb.com

2009-10-23T05:09:00.001-07:00

We have this Save Mother Earth oriented English project. We are going to try to do something to save the Earth. And it's not like we could actually do something, so just showing that we care, must be enough.

Which lead to my proposal of Save Mother Earth orienting my entire social networking site accounts, and build a website to put the narrative thing in it and all the proof needed to show that I am working. (In collaboration with Kyla)

And my teacher just won't get the purpose of the website even though I've already said it in our proposal. It's getting really annoying. Oh, and I'm starting to dislike her back again.

Now, I need your visits. I need them, so click the link below and drop your tag.

SaveMotherEarth.110mb.com

Everyone wants to be loved.

2009-10-20T06:36:00.000-07:00

To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?
To be loved, to be loved, everyone wants to be loved.

-About A Girl, The Academy Is

I am like you - I adore things, but it kind of evolves into some new thing when it comes to.... um, theoppositesex. And I've wondered just as often, how it must feel the other way around.

Sometimes, it does happen, when your heart is set on someone else, and his or her is set on some other person, and another heart is set on you.

Take it as a compliment when that happens, girls, seriously. But stay away or they will get to the point that they are crazy over you before you even know it.

Should've, Must've, Could've, but it's gone.

2009-10-20T06:13:00.000-07:00

Chin Mendoza : Langya ka, ka-debate mo pala si Bet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Chin Mendoza : Tas nanalo ka pa!!!!!!!!!!!
Me : Naka-tsamba lang ako. Mahina lang talaga yung napili na cell part ni Bet.
Chin Mendoza : Ano ba yung dinefend mo?
Me : Mitochondria. Ribosomes si Bet.
Chin Mendoza : PAANO MO NAGAWA YUN????
Me : Hindi ko nagawa yun, dudes.
Chin Mendoza : Eh, ano?
Me : Pinag-usapan naman namin ni Bet kung ano'ng itatanong at isasagot. Shhh.
At saka hindi lang siya ready.

Ahaha, para naman kaya kong gawin yun.
Chin Mendoza : Nyeeeeeeeeeeekkk!! Ang corny. Sana hindi mo na lang sinabi. Ang paghanga ko kanina ay OUT-OF-THIS-WORLD. Magaling ka na sana eehh!!

- October 20, 09 ; 7 pm

It is not right, anyway, is it? Me winning over Bet? It would not seem right, even if she could have won if she just wanted to, even if she would have won if she chose a better cell part, even if she could have won only if she was ready, even if she could have acted on the plan when she had the chance.

Everyone expects her to win. But I won, and it is not fair. It's wrong.

I feel guilty. The plan was, to make both sides look equal. And instead of saying that I think Mitochondria are independent, in attempt of giving her something to contradict - which I might not have informed her that I knew how to fight it back - I should have acted on the plan, which is concluding that both cell parts are needed, and there is no cell if these parts are removed.

But in this you must rejoice: we are one of the best pairs and we will receive extra points in our Biology exam, which is by next week.

Nobody talks bad about my bespren.

2009-10-14T02:13:00.000-07:00

I though I must update my blog along with the skin since the TC era has passed away. From this post onwards, I will not talk about anything TC anymore - ehvurr. Besides, it is not a recommendable topic. Heehee.

Me: Honestly, I loved everything about the TC blog. I still love it. Kind of miss it, actually.
Rikan: WTF.
Me: No, I'm serious.
Rikan: Where the hell did you dig that shit up?

So from this post onwards, I will only talk about how stressed I am and in need of sleep and how tight my schedule is. And how I hate James.

Parteh on Zwinky, and have a good sleep...

2009-10-08T03:26:00.000-07:00

What I really want, is to parteh on Zwinky, and have a good sleep long enough to pay up for the weeks I've been having only three hours of sleep each day. Or at least that is what it feels like.

You know, there's a difference between sleep and rest. What I need, is rest, which means sleeping without anything to worry about. Or at least that is what it means to me.

The home works, and the my anxiety for the RP I'm joining in Gendou keeps me from resting.

Alright, the book I am currently reading, too.

But there is always something for me to stay up late. Yesterday, I wrote a script for Hannah's skit in Biology. Tomorrow, - Friday - I'd be staying in school until 5 pm to help in saving that wretched bulletin board of ours. On Saturday, I might be helping Hannah shop for the materials of her English project. The next day, Kyla and I might be discussing and starting our English project already. On Monday, I'd be helping Hannah make bracelets for her project, which might be extended until Wednesday. And on Monday, too, we(Kyla and me)'d have to be starting on our own one week project.

I keep offering help out to everyone, I keep welcoming all possible ideas. I want to do it all, without giving much thought to how I could manage everything. But this will be fun. The most fun thing that's going to happen after the previous one.

Now, excuse me while I write our script for our skit on Monday in Biology.

Like stolen shots of laughter and smiles, now yellow with age.

2009-10-08T01:58:00.000-07:00

'I think an old, deserted house is such a sad sight,' said Anne dreamily. 'It always seems to me to be thinking about its past and mourning for its old-time joys. Marilla says that a large family was raised in that house long ago, and that it was a really pretty place, with a lovely garden and roses climbing all over it. It was full of little children and laughter and songs; and now it's empty, and nothing ever wonders through it but the wind. How lonely and sorrowful it must feel! Perhaps they all come back on moonlit nights...the ghosts of the little children of long ago and the roses and the songs... and for a little while the house can dream it is young and joyous again.'

Diana shook her head.

'I never imagine things like that about places now, Anne. Don't you remember how cross Marilla and mother were when we imagined ghosts into the Haunted Wood. To this day, I can't go through that bush comfortably after dark; and if I began imagining such thing about the old Boulter house, I'd be frightened to pass it, too. Besides, those children aren't dead, they're all grown up and doing well...and one of them is a Butcher. And flowers and songs couldn't have ghosts, anyhow.'

Anne smothered a little sigh. She loved Diana dearly and they had always been good comrades but she had long ago learned that when she wandered into the realm of fancy, she must go alone. The way to it was by an enchanted path where not even her dearest might follow her.

~L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Avonlea

Like stolen shot of laughter and smiles, now yellow with age. It will stay just like that. I will go back into it every now and then, reminisce and daydream, with no one else - just me.

I will replace that thick, rotting rope that we are still holding currently, before it becomes too sick to even hold on to, before we pull away for forever, before all things get wasted. Before nine monthsaries get wasted, before one anniversary gets wasted.

I will replace that thick, rotting rope with a new one with the same color and feel. With the same warmness, with the same giggles, with that same old way we agree in almost everything. Without the writing about but not mentioning who. Without the getting annoyed but not showing, not saying so, without faking or lying.

You won't hear anymore about it from me. You forget all about that now.

Let me stay this way; I understand that you want to be you now. But let us not pull away.

I, friends, am officially back.

2009-09-20T03:01:00.000-07:00

(I dun own the image.)

~~Rico Blanco!~~ Rivermaya! <333 *swoon*

Aside from my comeback, I also have my favorite OPM band now :> I am also officially loving Miss Leen. But just can't get along with James, no matter how much I adore him. May I present my Worry List.

~~Intramurals~~
~~Exam Results~~
~~Card Release~~
4th Chapter of The Queen Bee
Forum Launch
UN
Halloween Party
2nd Quarter Exams
Sembreak
Christmas Party

But, sadly, I still don't have anything to write about.

Yael has...

2009-08-27T06:34:00.000-07:00

gone to blog at nostalgiaband.blogspot.com with Rofly. I will see you there, guys. Drop your tags there, if possible.

James won't be my downfall.

2009-08-20T22:24:00.000-07:00

In case you don't know yet, I am back in the clique. And there's a bitch hiding out there.

I know that one day, us four will be fighting and blaming each other. But now that it is still quite early, they could tell me if they don't want to be part of this crap anymore. I don't even need to hear their excuses; I just want to know.

I thought I deserve everyone's slaps but it turned out that the traitor is deserving of mine. For that cause, they don't have the right to be angry at me anymore because she has fooled us as well. Lahat pala tayo sa classroom bitches eh. Sige.

One day, I will get tired of all these fights.

Though I don't feel anything anymore but coldness when everyone cast me their cold looks, everything he says are like knives sent flying through my chest. And every time, I feel his anger biting into my soul. Yet, his smile seems to melt my knees and it hurts that he. Hates. Me. But as long as I feel like I still could fight, I would. James can't be my, or her, downfall.

And one day, I would feel no pride anymore. But today that I can't seem to avoid holding holding my chin up, I swear that if the day of my defeat comes, he will fall as well. We will all fall - hard.

I really don't like visitors.

2009-08-15T07:27:00.000-07:00

I apologize for my attitude since last night. I am sorry if it especially attacked this time that we have visitors.

I really don't like visitors. They just barge inside the house and try to invade every place that ought to be your sanctuary and privacy - your room. They even use your own pillow - the pillow you can't seem to sleep without.

And we have too much!

I am minding so many things now - I was kicked out of the clique and I am having my cursed period. Aside from that, I've been cramming about Math. Sorry, mom and dad.

And I apologize again if I am being such self-centered brat.

To save my poor, poor ego.

2009-08-15T06:55:00.000-07:00

One more agonizing moment to briefly tell you about the debate. For you have the right to know. You are The Latest Yael Hero Gossip Site, right? Yes.

I forgot my point of view.

My damned speech was too genius and it wouldn't seem like I even know the least bit about it. But I did. I did. I could've proved that if only N3 questioned me about it.

I was not supposed to be arguing still when I said my final statement.

Because I forgot my point of view, I, like them, argued about education and economy.

Bet and Kyla.... *on all fours, worshiping*

I told you Kyla, that I will never argue with you because I - ever since - agree always with whatever you say.

If I was N2, this would not happen. And James would be the one in my place now in attempt of delaying himself. That wasn't my purpose, really.

But if I was really awesome, I coud've found a way to save my poor, poor ego.

Even so, I think my first question for Kyla kind of sauteed her. >:)

Kicked out of her clique

2009-08-15T06:35:00.000-07:00

Second World Record.

I finished ze Computer exam in a ZAP~ :>

Sir Santoyo had tried to scare us by saying that nobody has passed the exam yet.

But I pwned him >:) Bcoz I know I passed it - faster than everyone else.

Or so that is what it looked like. Kyla was done ages ago before I even finish it and she was just waiting for someone to finish as well.

This makes me feel like I am still awesome. That I could still do things better than anyone who is not in the clique. But everyone knows that James already took my place for all eternity, on that day, when the walls of my kingdom tumbled down with me.

It was almost everything I am. I prided myself on every bit of it.

I should've known that debate would bring me down. Damn, you knew you couldn't do it, Yael.

I will memorise the table of powers after this...

2009-08-10T01:57:00.000-07:00

I confess, that I barely passed all of my Math tests and I know, that I scarcely have a chance of saving my grade. I confess also, that I still hope.

It was a blessing that I was put in St. Matthew. I've no more endeavors - James, by the way, is not included. Though I am afraid that he could beat me. eh. Nao and Norika aren't included either. I've long ago accepted that I was born to hail them the greatest. - it's only us four ruling. But, the prophecy could only be granted if I put some effort in making it happen.

So I gotta stop procrastinating and get my butt studying.

I will memorise the table of powers after this :>. I am confident with my CL and Science exams coming up. And guess what? Computer is nothing to worry about after all - we are gonna have debugging for the exam :>

Oh joy! \:D/

Pray for me in Math. [-O<

Lately, I have been nothing but hate.

2009-08-08T04:29:00.000-07:00

I wanted to burn the uniform I was ironing that minute. It was my sister's, actually.

And actually, I was angry at her. But I was angry at my mother and Jaime as well.

Yes, no more screen names. Or maybe you would want me to slightly save your disgusting face and let you take it something like parinig or patama, or, hell, back fight. Tell me.

Lately, I have been nothing but hate. Yet I can't seem to write songs.

And lately, I have realized that I have been a major bane of my `rental units' existences as they play the same role in my pointless one - occasionally. That doesn't mean I'm your rebellious kid, stupid.

Oh. Kay. You know this. You don't want to be compared to anyone, either. Right?

My mother's done this before. She's compared us to anyone - everyone, every kid she knows. No, really. And it annoys me - and you - to the extreme. More now that she's compared me to my sister.

My sister, my almighty sister, who caused commotion in this house. My sister who deserves to be scolded and punished, who, by favouritism, was not chastised in any way. When if it came to me, this house will thunder.

I don't understand why they have to be so unfair and insist on depending on me all the time saying that they 'trust' me and blame me all alone when something goes wrong when they only do not want my sister to have any pains.

I don't understand how my mother even got me compared to her! D:

I am still angry at Jaime. I could be angry at him as long as I want.

I am the only one attacked by Jaime today.

2009-08-06T23:07:00.000-07:00

eh.

I have been complaining since this morning about Rofly's absence.

Today, by the way, was teh oath taking of the club and classroom officers. So I was stuck there, between Ronjay and Che, all quiet. 'Coz there's no one I could talk to. It is bad that Rofly's out there in Baguio while I am taking my oath in the middle of the covered court together with the people whom I share the day with. Araw daw kasi namin ngayon. eh. We could've taken teh false oath together, Giggler.

And it's bad that I am the only one attacked by Jaime today. Rofly's not there, so,the attention's diverted to me.

Shut the fuck up Jaime.

I will live up to my name - badass-badmouth

2009-08-05T19:17:00.000-07:00

Currently, my family is being the bane of my pointless existence, smothering me to the extreme in such royal a way that I have decided to live up to my name - badass-badmouth. >:p

eh.

Twilight-loving and suicide-obsessed

2009-08-04T08:28:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I feel like I should just freaking stop being mean to teh gay, James. Because it's all being too naive. eh. Besides, I might look kinda looking dumb already. Andd, tomorrow, I shall start. Say g'bye to the meanie Yael Hero, duder, and welcome the freaking friendly one. eh.
Let us all hope I'll be able to resist. Bahaha. >:)

Anyway, he was reporting (again) yesterday. Guess what? He so good-lookin'. *swoon~~~~*

Why the hell I am always talk about boys, don't ask me.

On Thursday, we will have a debate in English. Debates are awesome, duder. I was rejoicing and doing the \:D/ smiley all the time - UNTIL. Teh gay was suddenly in our group. Boo.

He began assigning his friends for the major people in the group and assigned himself as a team captain, too. It is good that he knows, though, that one of his Twilight-loving-suicide-obsessed friends can't replace Bet - on any account. I wanted to tell him: "Why can't you stop assigning us and do it yourself?" when he was like: "Oh, ikaw, dito ka, blah blah diddy blah..."

However, it should go well. For I won't have to burden myself with work for this debate that will only shove humiliation into my face, I get my butt working or not. All I have to do is to cooperate.

And compromise with the people I despise. Right.

Speakers should be intimidating, tough, and should know how to ~~kick-ass~~ fight off.
I COULD DO THAT. If, I will be arguing with teh gay and his friends. It will be so awesomeeeeeee.

Kyla. Dude. You could get us three from our group and let them eat dog crap on Thursday, if you would want.

BUT. Tomorrow, I should be kind to them all. ~~And pick up some stories to gossip.~~

2009-07-31T05:33:00.000-07:00

It sucks so much that I can't chat with y'all in Y!M on a Friday night like this. eh.

I told you - you gonna miss me.

2009-07-31T04:26:00.000-07:00

Did you? Huh?

I am afraid that I am losing the urge to continue writing my latest fanfic. I am trying, but, with by holding down ctrl and pressing the T key on my keyboard, I could type away wherever I could think of at the moment. And so I began to procrastinate.

I have somehow decided that procrastinators are those awesome people. eh.

James is changingggg :>

"Oh, ano, baka may suggestions kayo?" he said while we were practicing for our MAPEH practical test. Can't believe it, dude. I was honestly trying to piss him off but he remained patient towards us. *swoon~* And I was thinking, maybe it is just okay if the Photos section of our bulletin board is filled with his face. Because it is beautiful.

Oh and when we was looking straight at me, I felt like I was going to fall over 8D

BUT. What could be shmexier than this?

Nothing more.

For now, maybe we could sing.

I am walking down a one-way street....

Was kicked outta PC class

2009-07-15T01:18:00.000-07:00

Why do I have to be so crappy today? I forgot my shoe cover and was kicked outta PC class, forgot the Manila Paper we drew on for our Science Activity. Left my water bottle and I needed it && been terribly clumsy.

Some were made solutions - I went to the library & read a funny comic book to lighten myself up, we drew again.

Why do I have to be such a kill joy to my classmates? Simple, I dun like them. I dun like James, I dun like Matt. I dun like James' friends - who are Matt`s friends now as well.

But I am drowning in guilt for what I did earlier.

Damn, I know. Had James let me interfere with that English presentation, I could have been at least a little kind.

I shall set myself straight. Clarify why I hate them, should I hate them, had I forgiven James, or should I forgive.

Matt He`s changed. I dun wanna say so 'cause I dun wanna shot back with 'Ha?! Hindi naman ah!' . Or maybe his being proud just triggered now. Man, I should not have given him those compliments -___-. You know that true colours being shown as time passes? I never saw that in him last year. Nao did not see him like that. Nor did Rofyy. No one did. Just me. Poor me.
He is now friends with the people I like the least. And you know what, they really enjoy his company. I know, he`s really nice to be with. That's because he has no much pride and he knows how to 'get along'. He migles with everyone, anyone.
We used to be friends. But we ain't friends anymore. Like there never was a Yael before. There`s no more me in his happy, happy life. You're still happy, Matt. Congratulations.
But, really, it`s sad. Have I done sumthing wrong?

James Ohyeah. I dun really hate him `cause he is gay. Dude, I don't. I am sorry but I dun hate him for that. I hate him because he neglected my opinions in all those group activities in English. I am so very angry about that. Actually, that is what made me hate even the littlest things he does. One little thing was when he just repeated Kyla's words: "Hypertext Mark-up Language". Nagmamarunong kasi sa Computer, parang Arthur lang ah. The other one was when he heard Kyla`s answer and took it as his. What a loser.
Anddd, this. He has Twitter. n00bs shall not have Twitter. None of my classmates (of course, except for Kyla, Rofyy & Bet) shall have Twitter. Never. Ever. Ever...

James' friends who are Matt`s friends as well now ...until one of this people came to be spreading Twitter all over the class. And everyone`s going to make their wretched Twitters just 'cause of the celebrities in Twitter. I bet they'll be tweeting like James :)). That's actually why I`m deleting them in my Friends list in FS & making my account private. And another reason why I hate them, they are not my 'kind'.

So hate me now.

She put her hand on her chest - over her heart.

2009-07-13T03:15:00.000-07:00

Ka-swoon-swoon talaga si James. I am so falling for him - ohyeah, him - right now - yes, just right now.

And before I go on any further, I would want to state that I have no wish to pass this stage - adolescence. But, I have to grow up. Also that James is gay. What a pity T________T.

So yes, I am falling for him at this moment only. I swoon even more when I remember those, uh, times.

One was when he was obliviously holding - HOLDING - MYEFFINGHAND. When he was holding my freaking hand. 'cause he was telling us what in the world we should do during that presentation. He actually grabbed one of our group mates and me and it's normal for a gay to continue hold on one`s hand once he`s gotten a hold on it. I shook off teh hand, dude T____T.

The other was when he assisted - ohyeah - me in going to the classroom. We walked together to the room - we were alone, dude -and he was actually talking to me. ZOMG, I know.

But he's gay. And his diary cover`s prettier than mine T____________T.

I got all this dude-ing from Kyla.

I can't believe she's my sister.

2009-07-12T03:55:00.000-07:00

It's good you're here, Yael. It's good you're here to counteract your siblings' being self-centered. To show them that they can't have it all. A piece of someone's mature mind. That there are something else more important and that their wishes are not. No, they are not.

How I wanted to say in her face

Ang kapal ng mukha mo, ano?

Did not she see how broken Mother was? How stupid she is to ask for a new phone just after our grandfather's cremation. Her mother's father's death.

Maybe she's more apathetic than me. More stupid than how I could ever be. I can't believe she's my sister.

Our very open and noble leader.

2009-07-08T20:43:00.000-07:00

My head was throbbing. Our TLE skit just messed up (I was serious making the script!!!!!!!!!) - when I saw Liyar put that Manila paper on the board with Scotch tape as Lyka, James and the others write stuff on the board.

I realized that it was the Literature report thingy. Everyone was there except for me - because she, James, so effing took care of every little thing for she was our very, open and noble leader. Open and noble freaking leader. Damn her.

Sinolo kasi 'yung presentation, ang dumb tuloy namin doon sa harap ng buong klase. Hindi man lang humingi ng suggestions at opinions namin. Eh 'yung mga ka-grupo ko, walang namang pakieleam kahit solohin - kahit kainin n'ya 'yung Manila paper n'ya - n'ya lahat, lahat, LAHAT. Ako lang naman mag-isa ang may pakielam - at may masasabi at maiisip pang mas maganda - sa gagawin sa presentation na 'yun. Ako lang naman, ang may pakielam kung bababa o tataas ang grade ko sa presentation na 'yun.

Well, I suppose he always assumes that he will always be the leader. The freaking leader. But he is not the least bit at the foot of Nao and Rofly.

As for Liyar, I hate him for the possibility of saying "Aba, malay ko sa'yo!" when I demand why did I not know about all that.

Ang yabang. Tinanggal ko naman sa pwesto n'ya last school year at ngayong year na 'to.

Team Yael

2009-07-03T07:23:00.000-07:00

I`ve been blogging at LJ, friends.

It's sucky and I registered at Tumblr. It is http://heyyouyael.tumblr.com My Tumblr is still under construction.

Have you guys seen the Twitter TV ad? I haven't seen it yet, but, we shall find a new community to join in because it will be soon invaded my n00bs. James has Twitter, remember.

Oh, and I`m thirteen (ack.) today.

Suffocate yourself with your most expensive perfume.

2009-06-29T03:41:00.000-07:00

I suppose this entry is sensible enough for my gorgeous title.

YAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! My fanfic has been published at fanfiction.net last night and it now has one review!!!!!! Yesssssss!!!!!!!!! *does a victory dance*
Ehem, this, dear friends, are the kind of things a writer jubilates for. WOOOO-HOOOOOOOOO. Please do give my fanfic a ~~damn~~ try :).

Also, congratulations to me, because I just ruined my Dad's Friendster page and embarrassed myself by sending Arthur flying away. Wow, I just made happen an ever-repenting happenstance just for me. Many thanks to myself, I am just about to make this year miserable.

When you lose something you could never replace.
~Coldplay, Fix You

Oh, Arthur! I never really meant to send you flying away like that! I just wanted to do whatever activity it is first. But I hope you would not bother me anymore now. Now that I hurt you already.
Have I been scary or intimidating enough, I would have smartly done something else.

Anyway, our bathroom have stank so much the previous days, it smelled like poo. Yes, I know. It was so smelly I had to light up a candle and spray perfume in the bathroom. Oh, and that is where I got my title.

We thought it came from the bathroom on the floor next to ours and that there was a problem with the tubes. We also thought a dead rat was somewhere in the bathroom.

So my mom looked around the house this morning and finally found out what the culprit was. It was a dead lizard, stuck in the door of our bathroom. I, like you, am wondering how could such thing so very often neglected could stink so much.

But she's so perfect I still like her.

2009-06-27T07:53:00.000-07:00

It's a Saturday night, friends, we should be staying up late. But I have been fantasizing about getting to sleep.

My school diary used to be full of thoughts that are not very brilliant but are significant. But I have wasted the few pages of my diary this year for they have lost significance already - take note that I am not halfway the year yet.

Maybe I should try to look at other things so I could prevent mentioning the pronoun 'I' too often. I really should stop blogging about myself, even just for a while.

I thought it was just my adoration that I have decided Nao is very pretty. Until my sister told me that she think she's pretty, too. And that she often looks like she's glaring at everyone, which is kind of scary.

Also, I have discovered some more things about her, one is that she's very self-centered. But she's so perfect I still like her.

I dun wanna go to school on Monday yet. I need more rest.

PS. The Ting Tings is soo cute!

The One Who Swore Not To Lie

2009-06-26T02:54:00.000-07:00

Cute Asian actors, Friendster, cross-over layouts - no matter how pretty they are, I think they are cheesy now.

I, ladies and gentlemen, am proud to say that I have finally gotten over those things. And that I am now abusing BS and Twitter before they become sell out. I also am proud to say that before spammers have invaded Plurk, I have already known about it long before they knew Multiply. I am glad that I have gotten over Multiply, too, now that it is on the brink of the dreadful, dreadful sell out. So I will start raving over LJ before n00bs fill BS with ridiculous entries in n00b speak.
I pity BS already.

For the mean time, let me enjoy BS.

I can't quite believe it's Friday. I'll be able to sleep for more hours, YAY!

UPDATE:

James is so wonderful. He's such a gentleman. I've heard he's smart. Oh, and his face is still so lovely despite of his cut. His smile's really great - though everyone knows he's gay -
he's so wonderful.

Until he has Twitter now. She's not the least bit nice anymore. For all of you know, he's a n00b.

No, that's NOT me.

2009-06-20T23:46:00.000-07:00

I was expecting to see on my dashboard a bunch of effortlessly written 'Happy Father's Day, Dad!' posts. But, there was none.

And even though Dad has said that Father`s Day was made for business agendas, let me greet all the Dads out there. Oh, and HAPPY FATHER'S DAY PETE :))!

May this and this help his ranking on Google be number one again.

Gah. Let us just prepare for a week-long dead blog.

Finally collected all the things she's got to say.

I am to fix Under Construction For All Eternity. I dun know if Ayn would like the skin I am going to pick but, anyway. I hope she would write once I get it done.
I've been thinking of our difference since this morning - "Ah, alam ko na, one month at nineteen days! Ay, hindi, kasi ikaw June, ako July - walang gap..."

Oh, yes, I am to rant.
We went to Picture City for the 1x1 I.D. pictures. Everything was great - me, the shot - then it was all messed up by the editor. No, it couldn't be PS's fault. Damn, I could've took my own picture and edit it myself. I swear I could do hell lot better. We could not have wasted 60 Php. I am so ashamed of my I.D. picture; I cannot claim that it is I who is in it, NO. Gawd.

An excuse in many colours.

2009-06-20T03:09:00.000-07:00

Ta-da. How many of you have known about this o'ready?

Really, Iono why I had to post that. Or if I even should. However, I like that a little bit because of chandeliers and all the royalty stuff. That, anyway, was a nice video. Let us wait for TG to be flooded with more than ever 'Delena' sigs. Ha, yes, I know that.

Students flooded SHANSpeaks with First Day blogs in n00b Speak. Augh. My first day, anyway, was not really significant. (Or maybe I will realize its importance after a few months.) Only that we are in the same classroom as the one we were in in our Freshman year. AND, HANNAH DID ENROLL!!! YAYS! Oh, and Liyar's hair was horrible, but he got it cut the next day, so, he looks normal again. Also, Nao and her sister had their hair trimmed. And when I heard Rofly giggle, I was assured she was really Rofly :)).

Ah - yes, we were all smiles and squeals when we saw each other. And of course, introductions for the first week. My introductions were all blahs. I really hope no one took them seriously. But I do hate Jai Ho. Nao was amazing as ever.

I'm getting addicted to this:

I like that Sweden accent she has. And her voice just makes it all pleasant.

And I thought I had nothing to write.

Yes, and this blog is mine again.

2009-06-17T04:22:00.001-07:00

Yes, and this blog is mine again. From this post forward, all these are mine again. No more of that happenstance where I mistakenly gave myself away for some naive thing I suppose I badly wanted. Every little thing I thought and did was wrong. Writing about it now it actually wrong. I am extremely remorseful about everything. But, to set things straight, I am taking this blog back.

Whatever you would want to think of that.

Then I have finally fallen in love... with these:

And he further ordained that the voice of the bell should be strengthened with brass and deepened with gold and sweetened with silver...and that it should be suspended in the center of the imperial capital to sound through all the many-colored ways of the City of Peking.

...

And they labored exceedingly, like giants, neglecting the rest and sleep and the comforts of life, toiling both day and night in obedience to Kuoan-Lu.

...

Twice thou hath betrayed the trust we have deigned graciously to place in thee; if thou fail a third time in fulfilling our command, thy head shall be severed from thy neck. Tremble and obey.

...

Kouan-Lu had a daughter of dazzling loveliness, whose name-- Ko-Ngai-- was ever in the mouths of poets and whose heart was even more beautiful than her face.

~Lafcadio Hearn, The Soul of The Great Bell

I swear they sound so damn good.

New URL!

2009-06-17T04:03:00.000-07:00

Please re-link me! URL is now nuttomegan.blogspot.com
Wee-hee :D

An angst-ridden hiatus

2009-06-14T04:13:00.000-07:00

Could blocking be possibly anonymous as when you follow? I want that.

Let us prepare for hiatus, friends. It's a Sunday night.
But, really, I did not have time to prepare for an angst-ridden hiatus. Ah, so what's that? Was all too excited. Man, I just gotta stop this, it's sick.

Gah. Forget that.

Think I'm just on a coma-like-week-sleep.

Till this Saturday.

KYAAA~ RYO~~

2009-06-13T04:11:00.001-07:00

2 days to go, my friends. I actually thought today's Sunday when I woke up this morning.
Gah.

ONLY 2 DAYS TO GO, DEAR FRIENDS. && I might not be able to watch 1 Litre of Tears anymore.

(Boy, oh boy! AISHITERUHARUTO-SAN!!! itsumo egao - anata no hou ga zutto ii mitame![Gahahaha. I now know Romaji!]

KYAAAAAAAAAAA~~

)

However, I think it would be better if I don't watch it anymore 'cause it's too sad. This is the first time I'm gonna watch a JDorama with a sad ending - a sure sad ending.
What's annoying is that, I could not bawl my eyes over 'cause my sisters and mom are there. Argh.

As I leaf through the pages of Rof's diary this afternoon, there came that feeling in the stomach again. I am, too, excited to write on my diary again.

Dragging On, Not The Least Bit There.

2009-06-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

3 days to go, my friends. It's getting nearer & nearer.

I now have a reason to stay in TG. See, I was about to never use my TG account again since none of my friends are there anymore. I, honestly, was thinking once I have the links of my online friends, I'd leave TG already. But I found another reason to stay - I could learn PS tricks.

Also, I was honestly reluctant to go online because I know that I could not stop anymore. Actually, I said I will continue to write chapter one of my fanfic. Gah.

And it's getting near - the so-called first day. I will need to freeze my 30. 50+ Plurk Karma or it would be dropping forever. Well, it is, actually dropping forever.

I finally updated my Fanfiction.

2009-06-09T05:07:00.000-07:00

I dun like hiatus so this is for all your dashboards.

After so many months of hiatus, I finally updated my Fanfiction. BUT, my story - yes, only story :)) - is... I just don't suggest you read it. But once I have revised it, I will be advertising it again all over the 'net.
Plus, I have another idea in mind.

Naive Love Addicts

2009-06-02T03:57:00.000-07:00

I was about to rant for the seventh time when I knew that...

St. Matthew na ako.
....

YEHEY!!!

Uy, Classmate... :)

Needn't to say so.

2009-05-31T15:26:00.000-07:00

~~I, in some way, have managed to get over the section thing.~~

I will just pretend that it's like we are not in a single classroom all day & we just unfortunately don't have the same classes. And that it's up to me to make a way to be with them. Though I am aware that all of us don't have the same lunch break.

So, let me share with you my School Year's Resolution (because I don't have a New Year's Resolution). These are the lessons I've learned in my Freshman year & some things I swear I would not do again. Ever. (Though some are just uncontrollable.)

1. Be humble.
2. Control yourself. Controlling yourself could result to better & less corny diary entries AND, you could prevent embarrassing situations, thus, a nice Sophomore year.
3. Be quiet.
4. Observe.
5. Avoid laziness. ~~Remember: since you would rather read a 3-inches thick fiction book & have a quiz about it, YOU ARE TO PROVE YOUR ELEMENTARY CLASSMATES YOU'RE HELL LOT BETTER THAN THEM :D.~~ Well, yeah, we just can't avoid it... JUST GET YOUR LAZY BUTT MOVING and concentrate.
6. Don't just doodle on any notebook you happen to pick. You don't want to pull off too many leaves later.
7. Never EVER, EVER ever keep pieces of paper in your bag or in between your notebooks/books you wrote embarrassing stuff on. Or, make sure you keep them in a place no-one would see in your bag. But you best not put it in your bag at all. If you could, throw them away in the trash can.
8. Play during P.E.
9. Be nice to everyone; don't befriend everyone.
10. SAVE MONEY. SAVE MONEY. SAVE MONEY.
11. There are times when you just have to stay away and leave it alone, otherwise, you get ignored with a hit and end up walking away.
12. Maintain your composure at all times.

Always meant whatever was always said.

2009-05-25T22:39:00.000-07:00

Liars.

It's so unfair. I'm not supposed to be in St. Peter.

She said: The sections are random. Besides, you are as smart as them.
Whoever those them are.
Liar. That is what they always say-- that it's not a big deal; it doesn't really matter - whatever section you came to be in. But it does. It is so very ~~damn~~ important that I am ever anxious about it. And it's always like that anyway: everything - even the slightest hopes - turned me down since I set foot on that wretched, demanding academy.

I want to be with Therese & Kyla & my friends. And if not (again), I wish to be with Hannah. But maybe I would not be.

June & grim thoughts are to be anxiously pondered on again. So maybe my stomach would jump at the thought of school again.

How wretched.

UPDATE:
I just knew that I`d be with Maiko & Kate. && remembered that I could be their top 1. But still, I want to be a top student of a high section.

UPDATE [2]:
I WILL BE THEIR TOP 1 AND SHOW THEM OFF THEY WERE WRONG IN NOT PUTTING ME IN THE FIRST SECTION.

Secrets...nothing eats away at love faster.

2009-05-24T02:28:00.000-07:00

I was so near to 40+ Plurk Karma. I actually thought it drastically went down since I haven't been updating for weeks. Just how I`ve been watching JN. But I dont`t care; who does? Who cares about my boring Plurk friends? Who gives a hoot of their senseless Plurks? It is so boring without Rofly whose Plurks I could give a hoot of.

Orpheus couldn`t count the slaps he`d earned over his forbidden passion for reading. One every tenth page was probably about it, but the price had never seemed too high. What was a slap for every ten page of escapism, ten pages far from everything that made him unhappy, ten pages of real life instead of the monotony that other people called the real world?

-Cornelia Funke, Inkdeath

Now, it`s not that I don`t want to read Inkdeath anymore. I`m just tired of reading all day. Since it`s pretty hot. It never got silent in the house, you know. I really want ot go home but Dad persuaded us to stay. I don`t know what I`m missing though. Maybe JN, or maybe my files. Or PS. Whatever. I wanna go home.

I`ve got a lot to blog about. Oh joy, maybe I missed the `net mostly.

I, anyway, realized that I have been really careful with my books earlier when a kid left a stain on a page. It is a deal.

I`m going now. Yays. I`m so glad someone I don`t know likes my blogs. Wow.

PS.This glass I`m drinking from is really pretty.

Spun stars on her fingernails.

2009-05-20T03:31:00.000-07:00

And ta-da. New skin... again.

After consuming a big pack of pancake a few years ago, I guess I already got tired of pancakes. Just like how I got tired of apples. However, we had a nice breakfast of pancakes with syrup and mangoes this morning. I & my sister also made pancakes, with chopped Hershey`s Kisses & dried fruits, this afternoon. I just really like making pancakes.

This afternoon also, I got a hair cut.
I got a hair cut.
Yes, it is a big deal.
It took many years for my hair to be this long. Or maybe that long.
However, I am grateful my hair`s thinner. Though it`s shorter. Life every morning would be easier this way. BUT, but my braids! My thick and long braids!

Dad & my sister said my hair will be long again by June. I hope really it would.

The hair cutter got cut while cutting my hair. It must have been bleeding intensely for I smelled the blood.

Lastly, I will be away for a week. All of use have been waiting for this :)). Other details of this story is here.

And, lastly lastly, are these:

I know, that they are very pretty. I`m taking advantage of the brushes I downloaded that ate up some space. They are, anyway, worth it.

Maybe I should make my own Devian Art...

`Cause he`s not lovable.

2009-05-18T20:51:00.000-07:00

Now that is funny :)).

Maybe you guys have seen that before. I just wanted to share it.

She - is - so - naive!

2009-05-16T23:11:00.000-07:00

She - is - so - naive.
But I understand that. Not that I've ever given my contact details, too :)).
I think, i'ts a part of adolescence.

But if she didn't ever start hanging out with them, she could`ve found that attention somewhere else.

Adolescence is such a pain. It makes you do embarrassing things that you will regret. All the same, though. She has to let the naivete* out.

I scolded her anyway. But I could not spell out to her what I want her to know. We've been grown up to be decent girls. That somehow makes us feel like we have a right to criticize. It seems like we were quiet all this time and now we`re bothered.
I hope she understands it. All she knows what to do are helpless efforts.

Still, it's right for the 'rental units to scold her, too.

But she shouldn't have lied to her. SHE - SAID - SHE - WONT - TELL. She said she won`t tell, but she did.

This whole stuff is funny and dreadful.

*Yeah, I know.

On the Contrary

2009-05-15T23:40:00.000-07:00

I told you to be patient; I told you to be fine;I told you to be balanced;I told you to be kind

- Bon Iver, Skinny Love

It`s been quite long, blog. && friends.

I just could not help to change my skin when I saw Nao`s blog. But I was really planning to change it anyway.
Oh, she`s still amazing as ever :).

People have been stopping to look at me - or at my braids? - in our place. Why, braids are pretty, aren`t they?

Currently, 20 Dollar Nose Bleed is my new fave song. Oh, Bden`s voice's adorable.

Enchanted Kingdom, 5/9/09

2009-05-15T18:24:00.000-07:00

First, I am sorry I didn`t write about the bloggers' event I and my Dad attended in Enchanted Kingdom in Laguna last Sunday. I was busy! And the story of this 'I am busy' excuse is here.

I and Dad arrived at the meeting place at 10 am. He went here and chatted with some bloggers there. He checked the time - 10:30 am. So apparently, I was standing beside him, tagging along - completely silent - for thirty minutes. I wondered if it could have been different if Rofly was with us or if I was listening to Fall Out Boy or if I was fiddling with something. Or if I myself have been chatting with some people.

After a few moments, a lady called our attentions and told something about... well, I didn`t know, really. Everyone settled themselves in the buses (as my dad told me) after that anyway.

So when we arrived at EK (as they call it. Very nice, huh?), we first watched this short movie in 4D.
We wore this glasses you wear when you watch 3D movies. It seemed real. I even tried to avoid the piranha I thought was going right to my face :)). When the wind hit hard in the movie, I felt wind beneath my feet. If they were sliding on a rocky surface, you might feel as though you're sitting on a chair being dribbled like a ball.

Note: They will tell you to keep your gadgets. Do keep your gadgets. Believe me. && I will not tell you what`s with it.

We had lunch after that. They announced that the pretty hankies they gave us were to indicate which group we will belong for this contest they call Magicalympics. I realized later on that I`m lucky I & Dad are both in the same team.

The first challenge - bump cars - went okay. Actually, I thought I would have bruises because our car often bumped pretty hard into the other cars. But it was fine. We were to get the flags at the end of the field with blockers starting from the second round.

I was bewildered when I saw the Ferris wheel we were to ride next. I & Dad were forced to ride here, of course. But it turned out that it wasn`t as scary as I thought. We were given a sheet of paper to answer while riding. I think that was funny.

Then the Flying Fiesta ride. It was kind of crazy because teams gotta solve a puzzle, dizzy, after riding this ride. I, of course, would not ride in here if I had a choice, but, it turned out to be fun.

Then came the time when we were to ride in the Jungle Jog Jam.
Well, I, didn`t know that we would be falling from such height.
Another funny thing is that, we wore this head band with a glued plastic cup on it. They filled it with water and Dad didn`t know if he should hold on the bead band or on the railings :)).

Jungle Jog Jam

There were ten challenges in all. I`m relieved we didn`t have to ride the Space Shuttle `cause it`s closed. Dad described it as insane :)).

Space Shuttle

And then we were the fourth place. So we took a picture with princess Victoria and the wizard. Gosh, princess Victoria was so pretty! There were also guys in princely clothes. And oh my gosh, they indeed, looked this princes!

We took pictures of here and there during the free time. Then we ate Hot Shot burgers for dinner and watched half of the musical. They reminded me of HSM - the performers.

Dad got bored and I bought a bag of candies. And finally watched the fire works - which I didn`t get a picture of, damn.

It was very pretty. And even though you could smell the smoke, all you'd do is gaze at the sky.

More pics here.

Professor, you've been cursing a lot lately.

2009-05-07T22:04:00.000-07:00

The sun surprisingly showed up today. I thought I could do the laundry already. So I started right after thinking about random things under my sheets like I used to do years and years ago.

Well, one of those random things is my crappy PC -- my extreme need of my own USB, Microsoft Word's mighty Thesaurus and PS -- and how I'd die with GIMP without them. So basically, I was pissed off while doing the laundry, thinking of I'd never want to face my crappy PC again.

Earlier, there was this announcement that there'd be no water supply from 12pm to 3pm.
Unfortunately (chyeahh), while doing the laundry, only drops of water were coming out -- which actually means they turned off the water supply. That, was basically a big mess.

Mom suggested we/I continue it in the 'office', but there was no way I'd do this laundry there. But there was no way I'd wait until 3pm either. But it turned out that they have no water there, too. What do you say about that? Crap, right?

I wanted to eat five big boxes of cereals until I get sick. But there's nothing nice to eat in the fridge. But I JUST WANT TO EAT UNTIL I GET SICK. And get that laundry done once and for all.

Sun, perhaps you should show up again tomorrow. And PLEASE, PLEASE DON'T FREAKING RAIN.

PS. Green nail polish looks awful. Really, awful.

Yays. From Last Night.

2009-05-05T21:24:00.000-07:00

The fish I fried for lunch was a success. Yays. It looked ruined when all of the sides weren't brown yet, but, it turned out pretty nice.

I woke up around 12:00 pm so apparently, there's no more JN. After brushing my teeth, the happenings last night came rushing back.
Dad celebrated with his staff and mom because they/we made it to the finals of the Second Sony Wedding Video Competition.
I ate donuts and chips while reading and when I got sleepy, I slipped into my jacket and slept.

Anyway, here is the vid.

Sounds like Ryro.

2009-05-05T02:07:00.000-07:00

I want to change the skin of my private blog.
It's raining and I really, really miss listening to P!atD.
Damn write protection. Damn USB.
Now I am thinking of the files I need and I could leave.
It's just so damn annoying that I have to download all my music files again.
Like it was never hard.

I want to write Daeo Wills NOW.

Chill Out

2009-05-04T06:34:00.000-07:00

It's raining and I have no candies. Just a book. But I hope mom would give me money later XD. That's if we'd have time for reading.

This was for you, too, Rof:

OMGSH, my Photobucket is embarrassing! I wonder how she found it. Lol.
I better delete the ugly graphics soon.

And, Rof, you're as great as me ;). Or even better.

At 4:25 pm.

2009-05-03T01:22:00.000-07:00

Eating a 'cream-filled craker-wafer sandwich'. Drinking a 'milk drink with cereals'. I am blessed today.

A graphic I made for Rofly.

At 4 pm.

2009-05-03T01:01:00.000-07:00

Just an additional post!
I might take a shower after this. My shoulders are aching but I guess they are worth it for I think my blog's pretty now. See you after a few minutes.

And Doomsday Came...

2009-05-02T23:37:00.000-07:00

I always hated days like this. That's why sometimes I wish I was a boy so I wouldn't care much about stuff like hair and clothes. Maybe I can't come with mom and my sisters today.

I downloaded a little too much stuff today. But I will delete them once I have my files back again. Which is, tomorrow. Or maybe until the 30 day trial's over.

I am officially hating 'Jindy' fanfics and other fanfics made for JN. All I've been thinking about since last night was all this 'Jindy' thing! There was one fanfic wherein Jimmy became a mean, heartless man greedy for power. Such a bitter thought of our dear, dear Jimmy to be like that. However, I think that fanfic is interesting. XD.

Mom bought me a book called Sight. It has an interesting plot and the other book called Skin by the same author, too. But the books I've been wanting are coming very soon. I hope for no more delays.

Also, I missed listening to P!atD.