gone to blog at nostalgiaband.blogspot.com with Rofly. I will see you there, guys. Drop your tags there, if possible.

In case you don't know yet, I am back in the clique. And there's a bitch hiding out there.

I know that one day, us four will be fighting and blaming each other. But now that it is still quite early, they could tell me if they don't want to be part of this crap anymore. I don't even need to hear their excuses; I just want to know.

I thought I deserve everyone's slaps but it turned out that the traitor is deserving of mine. For that cause, they don't have the right to be angry at me anymore because she has fooled us as well. Lahat pala tayo sa classroom bitches eh. Sige.

One day, I will get tired of all these fights.

Though I don't feel anything anymore but coldness when everyone cast me their cold looks, everything he says are like knives sent flying through my chest. And every time, I feel his anger biting into my soul. Yet, his smile seems to melt my knees and it hurts that he. Hates. Me. But as long as I feel like I still could fight, I would. James can't be my, or her, downfall.

And one day, I would feel no pride anymore. But today that I can't seem to avoid holding holding my chin up, I swear that if the day of my defeat comes, he will fall as well. We will all fall - hard.

I apologize for my attitude since last night. I am sorry if it especially attacked this time that we have visitors.

I really don't like visitors. They just barge inside the house and try to invade every place that ought to be your sanctuary and privacy - your room. They even use your own pillow - the pillow you can't seem to sleep without.

And we have too much!

I am minding so many things now - I was kicked out of the clique and I am having my cursed period. Aside from that, I've been cramming about Math. Sorry, mom and dad.

And I apologize again if I am being such self-centered brat.

One more agonizing moment to briefly tell you about the debate. For you have the right to know. You are The Latest Yael Hero Gossip Site, right? Yes.

I forgot my point of view.

My damned speech was too genius and it wouldn't seem like I even know the least bit about it. But I did. I did. I could've proved that if only N3 questioned me about it.

I was not supposed to be arguing still when I said my final statement.

Because I forgot my point of view, I, like them, argued about education and economy.

Bet and Kyla.... *on all fours, worshiping*

I told you Kyla, that I will never argue with you because I - ever since - agree always with whatever you say.

If I was N2, this would not happen. And James would be the one in my place now in attempt of delaying himself. That wasn't my purpose, really.

But if I was really awesome, I coud've found a way to save my poor, poor ego.

Even so, I think my first question for Kyla kind of sauteed her. >:)

Second World Record.

I finished ze Computer exam in a ZAP~ :>

Sir Santoyo had tried to scare us by saying that nobody has passed the exam yet.

But I pwned him >:) Bcoz I know I passed it - faster than everyone else.

Or so that is what it looked like. Kyla was done ages ago before I even finish it and she was just waiting for someone to finish as well.

This makes me feel like I am still awesome. That I could still do things better than anyone who is not in the clique. But everyone knows that James already took my place for all eternity, on that day, when the walls of my kingdom tumbled down with me.

It was almost everything I am. I prided myself on every bit of it.

I should've known that debate would bring me down. Damn, you knew you couldn't do it, Yael.

I confess, that I barely passed all of my Math tests and I know, that I scarcely have a chance of saving my grade. I confess also, that I still hope.

It was a blessing that I was put in St. Matthew. I've no more endeavors - James, by the way, is not included. Though I am afraid that he could beat me. eh. Nao and Norika aren't included either. I've long ago accepted that I was born to hail them the greatest. - it's only us four ruling. But, the prophecy could only be granted if I put some effort in making it happen.

So I gotta stop procrastinating and get my butt studying.

I will memorise the table of powers after this :>. I am confident with my CL and Science exams coming up. And guess what? Computer is nothing to worry about after all - we are gonna have debugging for the exam :>

Oh joy! \:D/

Pray for me in Math. [-O<

I wanted to burn the uniform I was ironing that minute. It was my sister's, actually.

And actually, I was angry at her. But I was angry at my mother and Jaime as well.

Yes, no more screen names. Or maybe you would want me to slightly save your disgusting face and let you take it something like parinig or patama, or, hell, back fight. Tell me.

Lately, I have been nothing but hate. Yet I can't seem to write songs.

And lately, I have realized that I have been a major bane of my `rental units' existences as they play the same role in my pointless one - occasionally. That doesn't mean I'm your rebellious kid, stupid.


My mother's done this before. She's compared us to anyone - everyone, every kid she knows. No, really. And it annoys me - and you - to the extreme. More now that she's compared me to my sister.

My sister, my almighty sister, who caused commotion in this house. My sister who deserves to be scolded and punished, who, by favouritism, was not chastised in any way. When if it came to me, this house will thunder.

I don't understand why they have to be so unfair and insist on depending on me all the time saying that they 'trust' me and blame me all alone when something goes wrong when they only do not want my sister to have any pains.

I don't understand how my mother even got me compared to her! D:

I am still angry at Jaime. I could be angry at him as long as I want.


eh.

I have been complaining since this morning about Rofly's absence.

Today, by the way, was teh oath taking of the club and classroom officers. So I was stuck there, between Ronjay and Che, all quiet. 'Coz there's no one I could talk to. It is bad that Rofly's out there in Baguio while I am taking my oath in the middle of the covered court together with the people whom I share the day with. Araw daw kasi namin ngayon. eh. We could've taken teh false oath together, Giggler.

And it's bad that I am the only one attacked by Jaime today. Rofly's not there, so,the attention's diverted to me.

Shut the fuck up Jaime.

Currently, my family is being the bane of my pointless existence, smothering me to the extreme in such royal a way that I have decided to live up to my name - badass-badmouth. >:p

eh.

Sometimes, I feel like I should just freaking stop being mean to teh gay, James. Because it's all being too naive. eh. Besides, I might look kinda looking dumb already. Andd, tomorrow, I shall start. Say g'bye to the meanie Yael Hero, duder, and welcome the freaking friendly one. eh.
Let us all hope I'll be able to resist. Bahaha. >:)

Anyway, he was reporting (again) yesterday. Guess what? He so good-lookin'. *swoon~~~~*

Why the hell I am always talk about boys, don't ask me.

On Thursday, we will have a debate in English. Debates are awesome, duder. I was rejoicing and doing the \:D/ smiley all the time - UNTIL. Teh gay was suddenly in our group. Boo.

He began assigning his friends for the major people in the group and assigned himself as a team captain, too. It is good that he knows, though, that one of his Twilight-loving-suicide-obsessed friends can't replace Bet - on any account. I wanted to tell him: "Why can't you stop assigning us and do it yourself?" when he was like: "Oh, ikaw, dito ka, blah blah diddy blah..."

However, it should go well. For I won't have to burden myself with work for this debate that will only shove humiliation into my face, I get my butt working or not. All I have to do is to cooperate.

And compromise with the people I despise. Right.

Speakers should be intimidating, tough, and should know how to kick-ass fight off.
I COULD DO THAT. If, I will be arguing with teh gay and his friends. It will be so awesomeeeeeee.

Kyla. Dude. You could get us three from our group and let them eat dog crap on Thursday, if you would want.

BUT. Tomorrow, I should be kind to them all. And pick up some stories to gossip.