All I want is to keep us together, then this is all I get, and I don't deserve it.

They are cowards. They tell me so many things over the phone and on Yahoo Messenger, and then take it all back say that they don't care, that it's fine with them, on the time of confrontation just so Thea won't get hurt.

So who is the naive girl who has the issues now? It's me. Damned me. It's just me, who has the problem. It's just me, who's jealous. It's just me, who's just.... WHAT THE HELL, THE PROBLEM'S JUST WITH ME!

That's why Friends are not true. For your knowledge, this has happened to me three times already, all at the same year. There can't be no one to be with you when you need it but yourself. They will abandon you when things get ugly. When you're now in trouble. Friends are people whom you choose to be with for the mean time to help you get through it. Other than that, they are nothing.

Why do I keep trying, anyway? They didn't ask me to fix it, and I'm not a hero, so why should I? I'm just another kid who suddenly was carrying the weight of Thea's shit. Besides, this is not meant to last, so I better ignore the fact that it's getting rotten every minute and get on with my life. 2 years more to go and I'm done with this. 2 more years, not that long.